Relationship with God

The seeker is he who is in search of himself. Give up all questions except one: “Who Am I?” After all, the only fact you are sure of is that you are. The ‘I am’ is certain. The ‘I am this’ is not. Struggle to find out what you are in reality. To know what you are, you must first investigate and know what you are not. Discover all that you are not – body, feelings, thoughts, time, space, this or that – nothing, concrete or abstract, which you perceive can be you. The very act of perceiving shows that you are not what you perceive. The clearer you understand that on the level of mind you can be described in negative terms only, the quicker will you come to the end of your search and realize that you are the limitless being. Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

What is your relationship with God? Is it a relationship of fear or love? Am I man or God? To be fearful is to be man, to be loved is to be God. If I am fearful then I choose God to be fearsome. If I am loved then I choose God to be loving. God reflects the relationship that we choose to have, how we chose to be. But how can God be different? God expresses the face that we give. God can be fearsome because we see God as fearsome, God can be loving because we see God as loving. God is neither fearsome or loving, God is. God is not even holding up a mirror. God is not dong anything. Everything that God seems to be is what we want God to be. God is not any of these things. God is.

Man is made in God’s image. To know God is to know man. Perhaps we can only know ourselves by knowing God or perhaps we will only know God when we know ourselves. When we recognise that God is none of the things we think God is then we recognise that we are none of the things we think we are. So why do we try to be loving, compassionate, when God is none of these things. Because when we are with God that is how we feel, not how God feels. “I feel loved so God must be loving”. God again becomes a reflection of me, not me a reflection of God. Man is created in God’s image not the other way round. We try to give God the qualities that we choose for ourselves. God can seem to be what we want God to be. But God is none of these things. We try to put a human face on God, to give God human qualities, but God is not human. God is, I am.

This is not so much that I am because God is. This is more that if ‘I am’ there are so many things that I am not. I am not this tiredness. I am not this illness. I am not this anger. I am not this jealousy. I am not this fear. I am not this sexuality. Suddenly all these things are OK because I am not them. They do not matter because they are not what I am. When they arise, I am not them. They desist because I am. When my mind says wouldn’t it be nice to be ill, to be looked after, for someone to feel sorry for me, then I cancel the thought because I do not choose it. This way I am not ill because that is not who I am. So as anger arises, I say to myself, that is not what I am. Now let go of everything that is not valuable.

Is loving what I am? Is joy what I am? Are these expressions of I am or just other things that I am not. God is, therefore I am. I am not this or that. I am not good or bad, loving or fearful, I am. So the underlying presence of God within just is. Just be.

Yet the expression of God in this world is different. When we act in this world then we are not just being. When we act in this world we are acting within the universal flow where the world swings between joy and pain. In this world we are able to choose how to act and what to bring into existence. Now the expression of creation in line with the universal intelligence, (Holy Ghost and Christ Consciousness) is loving, joyous, compassionate and peaceful. While the underlying nature of God, just is.

Both these aspects of God are present. First there is the underlying presence, the essence, the I Am. Then there is the expression of God, the creative power within expressed. This is everything, good, bad, loving, painful, but we can choose to create from the unifying creative force which manifests the qualities of holiness.