Week 24 – Letting Go

“To see the world in a grain of sand and a heaven in wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour.” William Blake

This is a course in miracles. It is a required course. Only the time you take it is voluntary. Free will does not mean that you can establish the curriculum. It means only that you can elect what you want to take at a given time. The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught. It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence, which is your natural inheritance. The opposite of love is fear, but what is all encompassing can have no opposite.

This course can therefore be summed up very simply in this way:

Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.

Herein lies the peace of God.
Introduction to A Course in Miracles

Everything that we have done on the course so far has been invalid! That is not to say that it has been a waste of time but it is based on an invalid perception. What we have done so far to experience our spiritual nature is not really who we are. It has helped us to feel what it is like and to give us confidence in our spiritual nature, yet we have not yet fully experienced it.

The purpose of the remainder of the course is to experience who we really are. Until now we have looked at our spiritual being from a perspective of separation. This is a reasonable place to start from because being separate is how we have always seen ourselves. But to experience our true nature we cannot do that from a separate perspective, because, our true nature is not separate. We have explored our spiritual self, yet a spiritual self is not possible, we can only be a spiritual reality, which cannot be a self, if that self is unique, individual and different.

There is a gap
There is a gap between who we are and who we think we are. Our spiritual practice allows us to narrow that gap, so that we know ourselves better. In healing the purpose is to heal that gap completely so that there is no difference, that is so that we are who we are. In this space we are healed completely, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Our spiritual practice helps us to close the gap and starts to build bridges across the gap. Meditation, Yoga, Chi Kung all allow us to experience something of who we really are. It is a little like boarding another ship. By throwing across grappling irons the gap between the ship narrows, the ships are brought closer together and people can start to leap across.

We can continue with our practice to close the gap, but there will always be a gap even if it is only a hair’s breadth, there is always a gap. We can never close that gap because we must realise that there is no gap. There is no gap to be crossed and if we can only realise this the awakening can be instantaneous. There is only how we are, nothing else is real. We are as we are and always have been, nothing has ever changed. The only way to cross the gap is not by changing our thought but by being what we are.

Is it possible to realise who we are without first narrowing the gap? Yes, but unlikely, until we consciously close the gap it is hard to recognise that an alternative exists, never mind being prepared to experience it and cross it. Yet it can be done.

At some time we have to stop trying to change ourselves and just become. There is no technique no process, no method, no tool. It is just fitting within what is already there, without trying. Stop trying to be in the light, stop trying to express the light, stop trying to experience the light.

It is important to understand that it is simple. We do not have to try to be anything. We do not have to pretend to be parents, lovers, workers. We do not have to pretend to be healthy, to be strong, to be kind, to be anything. We are what we are, nothing more or less.

There is a no gap between what we are and what we think we are because what we think we are is not true. How can there be a gap between truth and illusion, they do not operate on the same plane. There is no gap because illusion does not exist. We can narrow the gap, but the truth is that there is no gap, there is only what is real and what is not. “What is unreal does not exist” so how can there be a gap.

Stop pretending, or at least realise that it is only a pretense. Anything but now is not real. Any future or past is illusion. Any image we hold or try to fulfill is not real. Every effort is expended in creating the illusion. Effortless living is to dispense with the illusion, because without illusion we do not need to expend any energy. There is no energy needed to be what we are. We only need energy to be what we are not.

“All rational beings, angels and men, possess two faculties, the power of knowing and the power of loving. To the first, to the intellect, God who made them is forever unknowable, but to the second, to love, he is completely knowable, and that by every separate individual.”
The Cloud of Unknowing.

Being is the feeling of wholeness, of spirituality and humanity combined, but with the spiritual self leading.
This requires us to look at what we have been doing from a completely different angle. The course has been one where we, as individuals, seek to discover our spiritual self. Now we look at it, not as an individual, but as though we are part of a spiritual being who explores humanity, who for a time can experience human senses and emotions.
We are aware of two parts to ourselves, our humanity and our spirituality. We flow in and out of these two states and we use our tools as appropriate to where we are at any given time. Sometimes we lead our lives from spiritual perspective, sometimes we return to unconscious living.

Nothing Unreal Exists
What is not part of the Oneness, does not exist. Yet this body has a purpose. Its purpose is to allow the experience and to act as a means of communication i.e. so the experience of Oneness can be shared. It is our perception that the body and spirit are different but co-residing. But this is how we perceive the world from a separate viewpoint.

We need to approach spirituality from a different perception, not from being separate but from being whole. From the point of view of wholeness the body is not separate. We have already acknowledged the connection of our spiritual self, but this is different. This is saying that our physical form is also part of the Oneness. So now we can express the qualities of wholeness of God in form. All living things have the quality of God within them. While seeing the body and spirit as separate helps us to approach, to close the gap. Form and non-form the physical and the spiritual, are really the same.

We do not worship form, but learn to appreciate it. We learn to look after and care for the body. Chi kung helps us to unfold the capabilities of the body as a means of communication. Meditation helps us to unfold the spiritual nature of the mind. We learn to merge God within us, God in form and God in non-form back into wholeness. Yet God was never separate in the first place. But what we are capable of is experiencing God, through the merging of form and non-form.

Yes the physical form itself is transient, but the energy within form is continuous and unlimited. Everything is in a natural cycle and our bodies too form part of that cycle, but in the cycle energy is maintained and continues in other forms.

Everything is balanced, in spirituality we react and respond to the world through the heart. We connect to God both through the light and through the earth, connecting to God in both form and non-form. We express this light into the world through the heart with a feeling of unconditional love. There is an equal and balancing energy returning from the world to us. This is received back at the heart. Our role is to be open, to accept this reflected light for us.

What is it that we are accepting. This is not the love of heaven directly, that is felt at the crown, nor is it the energy of the earth. But it is how the world responds to us at a spiritual level. This is the light of earth and heaven expressed through others, either consciously or subconsciously. Energy flows through every living thing and, even if we are not consciously aware of it, is expressed through the heart. By being open to it we are allowing ourselves to accept this expressed energy i.e we are seeing the perfection or soul quality in others or in nature.
Six Element Meditation
After the 6 element chi kung sit down.

Briefly go through the six elements feeling them at each centre.

Bring the arms up to the heart and feel the crown centre, then raise them up above the crown and one hand above the other bring them down in front of the body. As you do so, feel as though you are taking away all the elements that are not who you are, the mind, the space, the air, the water, the fire and the earth. Repeat three times as if taking them away and becoming empty.

Sit in the emptiness and try to feel what remains. Sit for a few minutes just observing and being aware. After we take away what we are not what is it that remains. There remains some sense of presence that we feel.

When you feel ready to explore that presence further, or are just ready to move on bring your attention to the heart centre. The heart is the centre of your being. It is in the centre of the energy centres. In the centre of the heart, so in the centre of the centre of the centres, is a spark of light, like a seed. We pay attention to it.

We allow ourselves to go into it. So with every out breath we relax into it and let go. Each time going more deeply and sink into the spark of light. So that we feel that we are getting smaller and the seed is growing.

The seed grows larger and it becomes a flower. Initially the bud of the flower is closed but again it opens with the breath. If you like you can also open the arms to the side of the heart to help you with the feeling of the heart opening with the flower. The flower opens and as it does it reveals a symbol in the centre of the flower. Try to take note of the symbol without letting the mind come in and think about it, that can come later. Do not judge it, good / bad , right / wrong and try not to create anything with your mind. If nothing comes so be it.

Sit with the open heart as long as the feeling stays.

When you are ready close down in the usual way, take your time and let the symbol come into your conscious mind along with any insight as you come back into physical awareness.

Spend time contemplating what the symbol means for you.